I write here because I do not have a job, and these are my thoughts.
I typed this using my laptop. It's a good and trusty laptop of mine. I recall just less than a month ago that merely seeing this closed laptop - with its exterior decorated with stickers I acquired from friends and sticker cons - had me associating it with the slight dread and pressure from my previous work, because it was the only device I used. Now, there's still some pressure when I use my laptop. But mainly because of the need to land a job. I got over the honeymoon phase a week ago. Now, my savings are running out, and no one has reached out for an interview yet. Anyway, I now appreciate this laptop more as a device for leisure.